How do I get motivated?
For a while there, my alarm would ring, and I would jump out of bed, put the dog out and in, and then walk for 30 minutes on the treadmill, do some chores, and then get the girls and me ready for our days. Now, I can barely get out of bed. I have both my regular alarm and my phone alarm set each weekday morning. I never used to sleep in on the weekends. And yet, I make it a point to go to Mass on Saturday evenings, just so I can sleep in another day. (I guess getting to Mass is a good thing though.)
I think that I'm just worn out. 43 years and worn out. Really? Uncle Harold is 95, and his body is just now wearing out.
Maybe I need to stop and see him more often. He does provide great insight into a vast number of things. Knowing that I will more than likely not live that long...maybe that should motivate me to do something of worth? something of value?
But then...who would wash the dishes and the laundry and sweep and vacuum and water the plants and feed the dog and the people? I do a lot. Not that I need constant validation, but no one in my current household appreciates anything that I do. It's just expected from both my teen and my autistic. I am there to serve them.
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But you are loved, and you know that. =)
Daughters between the ages of 13-18 get abducted by aliens. Once they get past the "I've got a probe stuck up my butt" issue, all goes back to normal and life resumes as usual.
Hang in there. Only a few years yet to go...
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